Always demanded.

I have a propensity of blogging twice, Both in the ******e blog and this blog. Well... But of course the content is different...

I had 2 buffet in 3 days. Too much i guess... So no More going out for me this coming week. I must stay at home and be guai... Do my work, prepare for chalet and camp respectively... haha

Anyway. Glad that O's are over. Deslen still owes me all my super duper books... haha. I'll meet him someday to get it back for my younger bro to savour. I can see the effort that my students put in. It really touched me to see how they were so focused and devoted to studying...

I just hope everything will turn out right.

Finally. Exams are over, PW is over... Just left one more... BM... *Sighs*. A tough life i must admit. Such luxuries I missed...
A few things I wish for...
1. A new KJV bible. Mine's so old, 1Peter is already torn and tattered...
2. A new Swimming trunks
3. A new crumpler bagXD
4. A new jackeT? mine's too small... Actually not very necessary.. haha

Nvm... I shan't be too greedy...
Contented.

God is surely teaching me a lesson

Its time to bring my pride downhill.
Its once again time for me to go back to Him
Its time to read His word, talk to Him, and Most importantly, DO HIS Will.

Applied for H3 Physics and Mathematics... Somehow I felt discourage whenever i apply for these type of weird education applications. The same feelings surged me as it hit me before at the start of the year when i was applying for NRP.

Always, we need to do up our portfolio, to muster all our Datas together, certificates and all, photocopies and seemingly commit uncountable acts of forger with our ICs, attach them together, Seek Kind-hearted teachers to be our referees to write forms which are seal and you will never know what they actually wrote, be it good or bad. Your fate lies in their hands, under a thin piece of envelope, the words that describe your external impression, your external being that everyone wants to know...

As i gathered my certs and all. I was Disappointed, with myself. It seems like my achievements are insignificant and considered negligible compared to the rest of my friends... NEW South Wales, High Distinction all the way... Singapore Math Olympiad... Gold and silvers... I'll never hold a up even a matchstick to them... Not talking about a candle... Which will be easily blown off by their "breath".

Perhaps i had laid myself many treasure in Heaven. Perhaps i devoted to the church, greatly... so much so that i had to sacrifice many academical opportunities, CIP opportunities so that i could be fully devoted to the Lord. Despite all this academical setbacks and disadvantages. I still enjoy rendering spiritual service to God. We should not lay treasures on things on the earth. where moth and rust does exist. Lay our treasures on things in a heaven... It'll be kept forever;

Just leave everything else to His will. Commit it into His hands. Let Him do the rest.

Give me another chance. Please.

I really don't know what to say again.

Disappointment always. Again and again. I dun know why. It just keeps hitting me. Piercing my healing wound...

BADBAD. Yup. These are grading me. critisizing me,exacerbating my anguish and agony.

2 Ugly ducks... Still haven't finished drawing.. I missed last week's lessons. Remember???
It just reminds me how lousy i am. Complacency does not help anymore.

I thank God for everything.

Game over. I dunno tmr Results return will be a time of celebration or mourning. Yes. It is very fragile now.

My hands are trembling.. Tremors... Hands all sweaty knees weak arms are heavy...

Played the piano.

Saddening...

If only you new how i felt about you.

Perhaps perspective changes.

Changing again?